i just re-read my last post, dated march 16th of this year...and my how things have changed! though i'm ever more mad about that perfect baby boy, my marriage did flush itself down the drain to divorce, and i've begun anew.
two weeks ago today i closed on my first home purchase. the next day i moved out of my marital home and into my very own sanctuary. and i've spent the last couple of weeks finding the comfort i seek in my home, whilst trying to adjust to only having my children 50% of the time.
i honestly truly believed that i wouldn't miss those kids. they're demanding, high maintenance, and operate at a speed i cannot match. but they are also sweet, funny, fun, and the brightest lights in my life. the 5 days every other week they spend with their dad, i spend fighting back tears at every turn. i miss them terribly, even after they've run me ragged 5 days in a row.
i have no idea where this new road will lead. i don't know which friends will help me through, which communities will keep my heart, or when, where, and how new friends, communities, and opportunities will happen. but i do know i'm ready. and while i do not foresee an easy end to 2014, i am planning to march through a festive and interesting 2015 and beyond.
hopefully my new life will inspire me to write to relive its beauty right here at brand new ending. and hope forever springs eternal...
~k
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