"you have never looked this good" said my shrink today.
and it has been a long time since i've felt this good. being away from all the negativity and stress, in my own space...my own very clean space, and both all in and all out with the kids, i just feel free. and in a way that's necessary for my happiness.
my kids are so amazing. Bella is so interesting and interested in the world, shy but sassy, insistent and independent. and Liam...that kid's going to be trouble, but sweet, cuddley, clever. it is so interesting to watch them grow into their personalities and minds. they are cool. i'm so grateful for them and to them. and i want nothing more than to do right by them, to prepare them to be successful, thoughtful, kind people...accepting of their own and others' flaws. better than me.
for all that i've hated about my life here (my commute, my ex and his family, winter), there is so much more that i love. i have _good_ friends, a great house on a fat chunk of grass, a job i couldn't possibly be any more giddy about, two tiny loves of my life, and i feel and look good!
guess i have learned to appreciate the path i've chosen...and gone even a step further and fallen in love with the life i've found along the way. it's kind of lame because i love writing and would like to have a reason to write more, but gushing about my happy life ain't gonna bring me any joy.
so i have to find a new topic...and a new blog.
~k
