one of my dearest friends came to visit from LA this past weekend. it was the most perfect weekend st. louis has ever had to offer. autumn was in fullest glory. and holy shitballs...it was like 80 beautiful degrees!
and it was one of those weekends where you pick up right where you left off...four years ago. there was a fun and lively walk down memory lane, lots of catching up on the good, the bad and the ugly, and the settling in of perspective.
i could breathe, i could laugh, i could enjoy a big chunk of my past with someone i understood and someone who understood me. and i saw two pictures of myself at times of genuine happiness...one when i was pregnant with Bella, and one i'd taken earlier that day, book-ending three years of forced smiles and shadows of an unhappy darkness.
wow. that blew me away. the juxtaposition of the recent photos and the two from then and now. and the reality sinking in that i'm finally happy, genuinely and deeply. i'm sure there was even an extra spring in my step today. and there will be for many more days to come.
~k
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